Current mood:	hopeful
Current music:	Secondhand Serenade

Thoughts.
So  I guess things are finally starting to fall into place. I visted James Madison and VCU last week. There was so much hype from my friends and just from the excitement. I really thought it was going to be THE school, but it ended up being yet another disappointment. Then we visited VCU and I have to say its pretty ironic that the ONE school i pretty much refused I would ever attend is the place that felt the most comfortable. It just seemed homey and the buildings werent all grungy like so many other places. So i guess thats the college, kind of wierd to think ill be applying in the fall. Freaky, really. I never expected for life to catch up so quickly, its like everything now slowly beginning to change, not just with school or graduation nearing just with everything. Responsibilty and everything. I know im ready for the most part because I know im prepared and everything but its still entirely unpredictable and not having a clue at what i want to do in life doesnt help much. I mean SURE i like writing, love it actually, but how realistic is that? Even major authors have normal jobs. I just dont know what to do, and I guess, above all thats whats the most uneasy thing about all this. Leaving high school is going to be so great, having that accomplishment, but then reality just sets in. Debt from loans and everything else thats just so uncertain at this point in my life. I wish things could just be set in stone. I wish I had a college fund, I wish I knew what I wanted do in life, I wish everything was just so much simpler in easier...silly I know...thats just how life is. If things werent so crazy and mixed up right now it wouldnt be life. I wouldnt really be living at all.