people and decisions...oh how they suck
 the whole ordeal with A has really been getting to me lately. I know it happened almost over two weeks ago but i still cant help but keep thinking about it, it bugs me so freakin much. It was only the 2nd date of my entire life and i get stood up...like really what kind of person does that. What an ass hole. Ugh. I dont know why its been on my mind so much, i guess bc no matter how much u want something u cant force it and u cant expect all people to treat u the way u treat them. I just really dont get it, it eats away at me alot of the time. I dont even know how to handle it. Its like here was this guy i hardly even knew and he was able to make me feel soo bad. Ugh andthen lie about his reasons when i ddint even ask for an explination. It just sucks so bad. And then the whole college thing is so stressful. Tech seems like a good choice when ireally think about it, but then i think about leaving B and not being able to hang out with him or talk to him like we've been planning since like this summer bc it would be so much fun, but VCU just doesnt seem like the place for me, or maybe im just letting D influence me..i dont know, i mean it seems logical to go to tech since ive worked so hard over the past years. But i really feel awful thinking about not seeing B for such a long time, i guess our friendship hasj ust grown.... oh i dont know. This shi is stressfull and i so just dont want to deal... like thats possible. 

OUT.