Current mood:

anxious

Firsts

So i had my very first date EVER. I dont think id ever been so nervous, but once it got going i wasnt so bad. Just all week it was just like this sick feeling. Ah. He had to come get me and meet my parents which god was awful. It didnt go to well either. Car ride there was just all on me. I had to start all the conversations...and at dinner B and R just really were no help. Im never doubling with those idiots again. And at R's house. Gosh. They just made it super awkward. But R says A was nervous which i completely understand and relate to. But i mean w/e. He was supposed to call yesterday and didnt, but man im so not trying to stress over this shi. Im just so against ppl acting like this and here i am trying to not think about it and its consuming my entire mind. Gah. And my mother is just way to freakin into in. God its not like anything has happened so stop asking me about it. If i wanted to tell u i would. Mother f*r. Now im just stressing. I need to not care. I want to not care. I shouldnt care. Gah. But i Do.